The most awaited time has already come! Pregnancy. Yes, I
am pregnant! For so long that I have waited for this moment has finally
fulfilled. I and Quick was very happy to know that we are having a baby. Were
both going to be mommy and daddy already and everything that’s happening and
going through, is all first time.
Being pregnant is not a real joke. It’s not even a kind of game you need to drop when you’re already tired. Yet, a real experience of life you need to embrace even during between the ups and downs of living. My first trimester was not easy. These are the times when I had depressions because of my father’s death and I’ll tell you, I find it hard grieving because of holding up my emotions knowing that I need to stay calm because I am pregnant. But there are times that I can no longer seize it all, that I really need and I want to cry as long as I want; releasing my emotions when I am sad and when I misses him. To keep away from this, I avoid myself thinking of my papa. Not because I want to forget him but because I want to stay still and relax for my baby.
These are also the times when I had dust allergy. It occurs only at night and I barely cough all night long causing Quick to be disturbed from his sleep. I find him more caring because instead of getting mad, he stays awake with me and caresses my tummy to relax it. This makes me cry sometimes for its hurts me much when I exert too much effort in coughing. Medicines do help but it’s not relieving my entire sleep. My OB told me to have a rest and keep from doing the chores at home and because of this, Quick was the one doing the laundry, washing the dishes and sometimes cooking our meal. I find him so sweet that he could take care of me unconditionally showing lots of love for me and the baby aside from his busy days at work. He also never fails to remind me to drink my vitamins, monitors my check ups, and helps me feed with more information about pregnancy.
My second trimester was quiet an adjustment while my baby is already expanding inside of me. There were times when I shed tears because of the extraction of the womb. It hurts sometimes and all I need to do is to lie down, relax while Quick holds onto my tummy talking to our baby to stay cool for mommy is whipping into pain. I knew baby hears his daddy for every time it happens it eases me and even though it aches at midnight, I just need to grab Quick’s hand and put it over my tummy as he rubs it until pain is gone and fall into sleep again. (Seems baby always loves to feel daddy’s hand)
This was also the time we knew that we are going to have a baby boy. A wish granted to both of us for we both want a boy. My mama in law also wants a baby boy, and some of my siblings wish it too in exchange of my papa. Sounds funny but it’s cool.
Now, I am on t he 6th month of my pregnancy. Seems well in the swing of things and happy especially when I knew what my baby is. An overwhelming happiness fills my heart and Quick as we are already preparing for the next three months and next his existence before us.
*Quick loves to takes photographs of me while being pregnant. He’s taking pictures of me every month to monitor my looks and the size of my tummy. Really lovely because even I’m asleep, he snatches a picture of my appealing belly.
Photos by: Christian Marquez
